Fragile moment
I lit a candle and sat alone in the room, staring at the only picture I could
find of her
Breathing deeply to calm and center, I clung to the old Turkish robe that was
always hanging on the bathroom door
Striving to remember what it was like to be around her, I remembered the
gentleness that seemed to radiate from her
Surrendering to emotions, waves of tears and a sense of profound sadness washed
over me
She passed away 12 years ago, yet the sense of profound sadness and loss was as
strong today as it was all those years ago
I guess that is how people live on through us, in our hearts and our memories
I wish, today more than most, that I could tell Grandma how much I love her,
miss her, need her loving guidance
written by Mindy Waterman, July 1, 2005
The journey
Tumbling, twirling ... emotions taking me on a ride that changes course
quickly
Swerving, swirling ... I cling on to the edges of my sanity
Pitching to, pitching fro ... the scenery blurs by me
Screaming, crying ... I plead for the ride to end
Wobbling, whimpering ... emotions leave me at the side of the road
written by Mindy Waterman, June 30, 2005
How do you know?
I sit alone, my thoughts a swirling mass of everything and nothing in
particular.
I stare out the window wishing I could make sense of that swirling mass.
My heart decides to chime in, adding various emotions to the now boiling mass...
How do you know?
The "what if" and "if only" thoughts and ideas consume me.
How do you know?
The sky brightens and my mood starts to lift when I'm struck by one question.
"What do you regret most?" races though my mind.
The question causes my ascending mood to plunge downward again.
The question persists, so I start to recall past events and conversations...
My greatest regret is not having the courage to simply say "I love you" to those
that I care about most.
Do they even know how I feel about them, or how much they have affected my life?
How do you know?
written by Mindy Waterman, May 30, 2005
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